i admire jugglers. the way they toss the balls all at one time and being able to catch them and toss them again without losing one of them. they must've practised alot.. i wonder if i have the capability to do that.
feel so loser now.. last day of chinese new year and im stuck at home doing chem again. sians.
brand new start for my o-so-very-old blog. actually.. i dunno wad to blog abt.. chinese new year as usual is just monotony fer me. yet amusingly i enjoy it. i think it's just the thot that we are together again. not as if im close to my cousins at all. i spent my day eating ba kua and watching tv. it's like that every new year. i dun understand why i just cant mingle with my family. but it's ok. u get numb to this kinda feeling when it happens every year and it wud just be the time of the year again to feel this way. aniwae happy chinese new year!
god.. i worry.. i worry that she wont stay.. i worry that she doesnt understand.. i worry that she wont grow.. god.. i worry that i havent put in my best.. i worry that i wont put in my best.. im afraid that because i havent given my 110%.. she leaves u. im afraid that if i dont stick close to u enough she might not be as close to u as well.. im fearful that i might perhaps be the cause that they fall.. God i pray that none of worries or fears come true.